Sometimes it hits me out of no where. It's like a knife stabbing deeper into my unsuspecting heart. Today, while minding my own business at the nail salon (one of my few indulgences), I was watching a little girl and her mother as the mother worked to keep the child entertained while she had her pedicure. In my mind, this child was at least 6. The nail technician asked the child, "how old are you?" I didn't hear her response, but I heard her mom say "no, you are THREE." I gasped. The child four times the size of my Eli is his age? Shoot! My eyes automatically filled with tears and the salt poured into the open wound. When will it heal?
Are you ready for more honesty from the Ramirez home? We are dreading Eli's next surgery. I cannot think of one surgery that we've looked forward to. It's such an interesting frame of mind: we work like mad to make sure Eli is prepared and healthy for surgery, but we dread every minute of it with our entire beings.
This surgery for Eli is not one well practiced even at the Shriner's hospital. I'm not even sure our precious and brilliant Dr. Gates has performed such a surgery in his career. Eli's knees are stuck at a 90 degree angle. His knees do not bend. He has no knee joint. His bones are fused at the right angle. One week from Wednesday, Dr. Gates will open Eli's leg, remove a portion of his fused bones and then reset the bones straight. When the bones, skin, muscle and leg heal, Eli will have a completely new leg structure.
He's known nothing but these stuck-in-a-bend legs. These legs, though, give him great balance and the ability to scoot around on the floor to his heart's desire. We'll be taking away some of his abilities, but it's a trade up...eventually. I wish it could happen with great speed that Eli will move into the ability to walk, but I know he will need a lot of time to heal before he can take that on.
Please pray for our family as we prepare for another difficult adventure with the Shriner docs and nurses in Shreveport. Today, Eli has an ear infection and a lot of congestion. Pray for his complete healing. David has pneumonia. Everyone is on the rebound, but time is limited...we need quick, miraculous recoveries.
In my heart, I know Eli will be walking by Christmas. Come on Christmas, we're ready!
With love and gratitude,